Author: Shinigami195

Rating: PG-13

Pairings: 1+2/2+1

Warnings: Angst, Limeish

Disclaimer: Don't own them.

Notes: Another small ficlet. Heero's pov this time.

Claiming

When did I start loving you?

I'm not allowed to love, not even you. Yet day after day of just listening to you talk made me love you more and more. You aren't weak. Not like me. I don't mean physically. Physically I could kill you with one hand. No I mean mentally. You are a stronger person mentally, no matter what happens you keep smiling, laughing, joking and loving.

I can't even smile.

Yet you dared me to try. You dared me to fight my training and the solider that lies deep inside of me, controlling me.

When was it that I won?

I woke one day to find myself laying beside you, your face was soft and sleeping, you looked so innocent and I waited there. You opened your eyes and smiled at me. All I could do was watch.

Deep cobalt blue, that's the colour of your eyes, I could never... will never... forget that.

But that morning was the first morning in which I woke up and stayed with you until you woke.

When did our relationship become so deep?

Ever since that first night together, that night after the day you rescued me from the hospital, which you put me in, ever since that night I never let myself stay until you woke. Sometimes I left straight after you had fallen asleep. Sometimes I left before you even fell asleep.

Yet you never said anything to stop me. You still let me into your arms and you always loved me from the very beginning, that was why you gave me your virginity.

I never thought I could love you back, all I was trained for was killing, too many innocent lives had fallen into my hands, I had spilled the blood of too many.

You challenged the solider deep inside of me and it awoke and for a while, the only time I was nice to you was when I wanted a fuck.

I still say it was rape, you cried, you tore, you bleed, you said it was love, and I hurt you more.

I can't love... well I couldn't love. I guess I can now.

When did I become so uncertain?

The day you took me. Yesterday, the day the war ended.

I had no idea as to what I was going to do. You strolled into my room, your smile wasn't there.

I turned to look at you. Something hadn't been right, it felt wrong.

You yelled.

We fought.

You hit.

I fell quiet.

"There is no need for the solider any more Heero." Your voice had whispered to me and then you made love to me.

Gently and lovingly you lowered me to the bed and made love to me and as we reached completion you whispered 3 words to me and I had no choice, I replied to them.

"Yes, I am."

When did our roles change?

When did I become uke?

When did you become seme?

Answer: I always was uke. I just never knew it. You took control over me and made me believe I had control over you. I played seme, I acted seme, but it was false.

You showed me sex, and you showed me love.

And you showed it all by saying 3 little words to me.

"You are mine."

OWARI

I wrote this at midnight. I was very shocked to read it but I like it. Whatcha think?

REVIEW!!!!! Please? ~Shinigami195~

 

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